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This would be a hard step for me to take. first and for most i would
have to get humble. i did not know what humble was untill 6 month sober
even though i had done it the day i pick up the phone and called a man i
now i did not like, but he had some thing i wanted he was sober, i
called him up and sead my name even though he knew who i was any way he
sead he would pick me up at 7:00 and don't drink, then hung up. that
sounds like he was a hard one to get a loge with and he was, that was
what i needed. i only sober up maybe 1 year in 25 an i may of be a hard
one my self, but i did not know tha of see it in my self. humble was something i was not thought as a kid but has sense then been easer to come by if i stand out of the way and let it find me. i don't know about you but the aa first step fit me. i understood the fist part and did not care about the 2ed part at that time. i knew i was powerless over alcohol and it had kicked me but. i no longer could stop drinking once i started drinking, the 2ed part of going to aa was i was just sick enough that i was will to do what they said, all most any way i did it the best i could. one the said was to come back. that was odd, no one had welcomed me for a while. i was a drunk and i dank every were i went. so no one wanted me around. i went to 1 or 2 meeting and ask the man who took me how often i should go.. he ask me how often did i drink and i said every night with great pride. he said i should go to 90 meeting in 90 days. i told me they jus wanted the 90 dollars, ( we put a dollar in the basket to keep the lights on.) he told me aa does not need me money. it was here before me and will be here after me, so hid the 90 meeting any way. he told me not to change any thing at first. get up in the morning. thank God i was sober even though i did not be leave in him , ( pray anyway) go to work or get a job. when you get off drink a soda or 10 just don't drink alcohol. do what ever it is you do after work and eat , shower and shave, go to one of them meeting . remember the best meeting is before the meeting and after the meeting stick around and talk to them. then when you get home and ready to go to sleep thank God you are sober and go to sleep and get up and do the same thing over. Well i did that over and over for 90 days i did not know that them man that i first call to take me to my first meeting remained me. i picked up a 90 day chip and that nigh when we were going home i told him if all i have to do is pray to a God i don't know in the morning work 8 hours , go to one of theses meeting and pray at night and feel this good, i think i will do it the rest of my life |
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