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I stayed sober the 6 months in prison and 6 months the streets, but I saayed high, then off to drinking for 9 or 10 years. By then I had reached a new level of drunkenness I had to drink every day. I wanted to stop drinking and went to alcoholic anonymous for the first time for me. still full of pride and self. It was hard to admit I was alcoholic.
The meeting were at 8.00 seamed like every time I went there was a meeting. I lessoned to what they had to say and the said for me to come back. So I did , I met some nice men and women. They all had 15 to 25 years sober. They were all so jolly. There laphter all most run me out of the room. I did not know how to laph any more. They told the same jocks and sat in the same chair as the day before it seamed. About 25 days went by and I was setting at a bar drinking a non-alcoholic beer and I ask for a real cold on , that cost me 10 more years of drinking.
This time I waen I was a little sicker then most. 3 judge still take bet on me once a year if I will make a another year, much less what family and friends thought. I was just sick enough to do what the said this time. Step 1 was all I had to work on for now.
Alcoholic anonymous sead the would love me untill I could love my self. I thought that was sick, but little did I know I hated my self. I did not like me or what I stood for any more.
Alcoholic Anonymous has be said the do brain washing, well I found out that I did not live in a clean world in my head, it was like a squirrel cage running at 60 miles a hour, full of stuff that stopped me from having peace. Out of all the years and all that alcoholic anonymous has tough me I found peace and serenity. If you ask a 100 year old man setting on a porch what he looked for all his life most will say peace.
Thanks to the program of alcoholic anonymous I am free of the bondage of self and do not want to drink or drug. It is said that we stop growing when we start drinking alcoholically. Keeping this in mine my might say I hame growing up. I grow every day instead on standing still or going backwards. Now I like to live. It is the next best thing to pop corn. If there is a normal I am working on finding it one day at a time
I had to learn to be a friend before I could have a friend. To day I have lots of friends. We get together and do thing all the time, I never had this kind of thing real friend that did not want any thing from me except friend ship.
Yes at the beginning I said alcoholic anonymous would teach me to love my self. It did , it has as so tough me to love. A real love, I feel with my heart not my hands. Some one was there for me when the chips were down and all I had to do is pick up the phone and get to a meeting. I could find the answer to any question,
If you have a goast problem you call goast busters if you drink to much and think you are alcoholic cal alcoholic anonymous
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