Did I learn my drinking habit and  Alcoholic Behavior a little at a time from child hood or was I born to drink this way? Some of us drank enough over time to cross a line  to have Alcoholic Behavior and some of us...once we started drinking we just knew we like the feeling and that was just for me. But some where along the way...I could not stop drinking like others. I did not know that at first, I thought I just drank more than most and that was a good thing for me. I had no idea I could drink that way and have Alcoholic Behavior.

I could out drink and out party most. I did not see what I was doing to every one around me. Not even what I was doing to myself. Do you know the difference between an alcoholic and just a good drinker? An alcoholic has to go to AA meetings.

One day I was told the definition of the drinkers. There are 3 types.  The solace drinker who drinks 2 or 3 and quits; there is the hard drinker who drinks more them he should, but can quit any time there is a good reason; and then there is the alcoholic like me who can't quit once I start drinking.

The 3 of them can drink lots...a little of the time or a lot of the time. 2 of them can quit any time, but only 1 of them knows what an obsession is.  You ask yourself ," what is an obsession"?. It is when I can not stop thinking about something. The only way to get the thought out of my head is to take that drink. And only then will it stop. I did not drink for 8 hours a day. I worked those 8 hours a day. As long as I did not drink those 8 hours I was not an alcoholic. I had my drinking mastered. As long as I did not get a drunk driving ticket I was not an alcoholic. So I drove in black outs. Woops! what is a black out?  That is when you loose 1 to 3 hours or even 3 days at a time with out remembering them....waking up with out any remorse and not knowing what you have done.

Am I an alcoholic? Do i have Alcoholic Behavior? Well it took me 30 years of drinking, sobering up about 1 year, out of  the 30, to wake up and find that I was a real alcoholic. And after research found I had Alcoholic Behavior and I no longer could stop drinking... and that I had to drink. 1 case of cheap beer a day would keep me a going for a lot of years and only going to jail only every 10 months. All small stuff.

Do I have Alcoholic Behavior? I really am not the one to answer that question. When it comes to Alcoholic Behavior in the end it was a combination of Judges, Lawyers, Doctors, Wife, Family, Friends all saying I had Alcoholic behavior. It was only after I had stopped drinking for a while, did I start to listen to them. I would not hear of it while I was drinking. I thought I was in control

What I know about Alcoholic behavior is that I did not act normal.  What is normal is a street in Springfield, MO full of alcoholics and addicts. What I am saying is that I did not act like 95% of the world did. I did not know what normal was, I thought normal thinking people were sick or something. I thought I was normal and it was every one else that was wrong. But that was the way I was taught as a child.

Living with a person with Alcoholic Behavior:  there is no such  thing as living with a person with Alcoholic behavior. You just live with it and put up with it until you don't do it any more or they quit.

You are probably too close to the person to help them. It will take an outside source. Putting up with a person with alcoholic behavior is hard. The best thing you can do is get help for your self. Someone might live, so it might as well be you. What good is love if you are dead. When it comes to alcoholic behavior there is 2 deaths: there is dead dead and there is spiritually dead, which is most likely to happen

If your friend or loved one has alcoholic behavior it will grow on you in time and you will start having alcoholic behavior your self even though you don't drink. So will the kids if they hang out with it to much. alcoholic behavior will effect every one. Get help...please save yourself.